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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Revamped.

decided to change the design for my blog... hee... now it feels more me... well a new look a new feel but the same me and the same dream... my fairytale...

many many things have happened this year... many that left scars... there were many wonderful memories... as well as heart breaking ones... which sometimes get me thinking if... that fairytale exists... all the stories that have happened this year have all yet to end with "happily ever after"... when will that day come?

but then again... if it was that simple... then fairytales would have been happened all the time... if i give it up now... i will never find that "happily ever after"... only by continuing my relentless search for that perfect fairytale... will there be a chance of finding it... because if there is a purpose in life... then let it be love... let me be drowned in love...

to everyone who believes in fairytales... may yours come true...

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Friday, October 08, 2004

In Search of a Fairytale.

Story of a guy who is searching for a fairytale-like romance.

Love's Fairytale.

This is a story of a guy, Hiiragi. Hiiragi is a guy of a dreamy mind. From young, he began to dream of the perfect fairytale romance that he wants in his life. He dreams of how a simple romantic friendship should start, of how, it should develop into a closer friendship, and how it would improve into a relationship. He dreams of little small things that might spice up a relationship, things as small as the way hands are held, how a kiss should start, when to hug, and even when to say what. Though he has never demanded or even suggested these, deep down inside him, he hopes that some of the things will happen, someday.
He started a relationship at the age of 15. Young, but he knew what he wanted. Many romantic things happened during his first love. Things were always right and always seems to happen the way he dream of. At times he would just put his lazy hand behind him and she would just hold on to it. Others should as hugging him from behind when he was feeling chill and giving him a kiss on the lips to say good bye were all natural. He was drowned in this little fantasy. And as little as it was, it ended soon after. He was heart broken. But he knew, if it wasn't meant to be, it would be better for it to end.
He continued his pursue of an undying romance. One that he hoped will go down into the history books as the "World's most romantic fairytales". He began to follow nothing else but his feelings in his search. Each time he was with a new girl, he hoped that it would be more romantic than the previous. But it never was. The older he got, the less romantic each romance was. Deep inside him, he knew, he still loved his first. Maybe it was the feeling he has when she was with him. The comfortability that was always around as she always seems to know what he was thinking. But despite this, Hiiragi has never devoted himself into each of his relationship a bit lesser. But still each time it ended.
By the age of 22, he has changed into an adaptor. One that always try to change oneself to suit the other. He wasn't really himself anymore. Through the years of courtships and relationships, he has always been trying to be someone that the other party would like. Always accomadating to each of their needs. The old happy-go-lucky self of his was no longer there. Everything has changed. On one fine day, at a seminial that went to, he met a girl who changed his life totally. A girl who was almost an exact copy of him. A girl who captivated him totally. They've met up and gone out with each other on many occasions after the seminial, and with each meeting, his love for her deepens. He knows, that is the kind of girl he wants to be with. From the day they gotten to know each other, Hiiragi has been changing again. He began to feel relax again, as though his soul has been revitalised. He began to become himself once more. He began to find himself again through her. He finally understand why, the fact was, he wasn't returning to his old self. Instead, he was actually adapting to her character, which was very much similiar to what he was in the past. And because he was adapting to his old self, he felt very comfortable, very relaxed. The girl, Taki, didn't want a relationship with him. She look upon him as a very good friend, one that she knows she can always turn to if she ever needed help. Hiiragi was hurt to know this. His dream for a fairytale that was finally happening was all just his wishful thinking. His emotions broke down. His life broke down. Never in his life has he been this sad. He cried on countless nights.
He started to doubt of this fairytale romance that he has always been searching for. "Am I just being stupid? To pursue in a fairytale." He thought. Then something in him pulled him back, "it does exist, but it wouldn't be easy to find", he heard himself saying. He knows that if he gives up now, he will regret.
Months have passed since, and till today, Hiiragi is still pursuing his fairytale romance.

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