been a while since i updated my blog... for all my friends who wished to know things that have happened in my life recently... i'll write them down here... just to keep everyone updated...
firstly... i'm ok just still abit messed up after the events that have happened recently... i'm single again... broken up with ivy on sunday morning... why? you must be asking... how come so sudden? some may add... to begin with... it wasn't a sudden decision for the broke up... been thinking about it for a week before i came down to that decision... i still love her... but our lives, way of living, thinking, likings, things we enjoy doing... just can't seem to click... though she's never asked of me to give up on what i like to do... but i know i'll have to give it up or i wun be able to do it just as much as before if i were to continue being with her... either that or she'll have to accompany me on doing these things which she will not enjoy doing... either way... its a lose-lose situation... i want her to be happy as much as i want myself to be happy... i want her to do things she wants and enjoys as much as i want for myself... selfish of me you may think... and ya... maybe i am... why didn't i think of this and just rush into a relationship in the beginning... yes i did not think of this... and there will be 1001 other factors that i've not thought of... but hear me out on this... if... for every relationship... i have to go through all this painful thinking... i'd rather not have a relationship at all... and even if you have thought through all the factors... can you be 100% or maybe even 50% sure it will work out?... so it still comes down to the same thing... try and you'll know if the relationship will work... some of my frens commented... "after so many relationship, didn't you learn anything from the previous? like why it didn't work? what should you do and not do in the next relationship?" and the likes of it... my answer... yes... i know what went wrong... i know why it went wrong... and i know what i should do... then why did i fall into and out of so many relationships... hey... i have no idea... if i knew why... i wouldn't have had so many relationships... it isn't easy to get out of a relationship... for those who've felt that pain before... i feel it too... and it is not easy to put on a smiley face to the world just to assure that you are alright so that they do not worry for you... i may seem very to many... and ya maybe i am... cos i find that there's no point putting on a sad look for everyone to see and make everyone around you worry... feel like stopping here... for my close frens...if you have anything you wanna say or ask... ask me personally...